>>5530life's long…
>>5537sweet. does kendo teach anything useful besides the nice workout?
>>5539>life's long…so there's plenty of time to suck?
>>5537ChatGPT is good for talking about things that very few other people have an interest in. I can ask him what an associative horizon is and I don't even have to explain the concept like I'm speaking to a third grader.
>>5539Discipline and economy of movement are things you can apply to life in general. I also like the ritual of it. I can't explain why but it feels good, doing the right thing with your body the right way.
>>5562Main reason I use it unfortunately. It sucks but it feels like there's no choice.
>>4941The overall affect I give off is not wanting to be bothered, it seems.
>>5574I find the idea of someone who can't have fun to be impossible. What would be the barrier that prevents you from enjoying yourself? Why do you want social interaction if it's simultaneously undesirable to you? This speaks to me of being unsatisfied with yourself rather than a need for social interaction.
>>5584>What would be the barrier that prevents you from enjoying yourself?I taught myself to suppress my displays of emotion as a kid. The people who hurt me visibly delighted if I expressed my pain. It made me feel stupid for giving them what they wanted. Interpersonal connection was just something that motivated people to hurt me. That's why I reflexively stay distant in social situations. I also taught myself to dissociate in order to make the assaults easier to bear. That's all in addition to things not fitting together naturally anymore.
>This speaks to me of being unsatisfied with yourself rather than a need for social interaction.It's both, though. I need social interaction in order to not go insane and to have a higher quality of life. At the same time, I regret the way that I am and wish I could change.
>>5586My point is that you don't actually want interpersonal connections, you just feel alienated by those you surround yourself with, and the thing that alienates you is your unwillingness to engage with others. You can safely disregard the idea of a higher quality of life gained by being more social because it's not going to be acquired by having more people interact with you, it'll be made possible by resolving whatever internal conflicts you have with yourself. Resolving it could be helped by trying to be more social but there isn't a point in confusing where the boundary is coming from.
>>5587Do you know of a way that doesn't involve being more social?
>>5588Be kind to yourself. Your post has a lot of self-criticism that reinforces your belief in your own faults. Being aware of your faults isn't bad, but it's being used to justify why you are suffering rather than being understood as neutral facts with their ultimate effects which could change given time and effort. How you should go about it really depends on how you respond to positive and negative events, and what it is that you think is hindering your ability to interact with others. Most importantly, be kind to yourself.
I can't get out of bed. Sleep. I want sleep! SLEEEP
>>5590Feeling cringe acts like a lossy signal in the way it's meant to convey social disapproval but it really just reveals your own social compass. At its best it provokes self-reflection as a kind of mini-trauma response but more often than not it simply inhibits your ability to engage in things sincerely.
Why do I have to do so many stressful things?
>>5604
He didn't say anything anti-social.
>We are pack predators
We're social animals who have evolved under conditions where mutual aid and reciprocity lead to our survival.
>>5610
…he's not asking how he can be asocial. He's asking how he can resolve his personal issues without exposing himself to social situations, which isn't anti-social, especially because the ultimate point is to learn how to be more social, if he actually wants to be.
I hate youtube. Its full of commentary slop, guys reading wikipedia articles, "video essayists" reading their F graded undergrad papers and pure pol slop. There are tons of videos of what amount to cultural criticism but its all low quality garbage rambling without the criticism part or nerds whining about capeshit. I hate this cesspool but I can't get away from it because no matter how much it sucks there are videos on there I need. Music, old media etc. Such a pain.
If you're new here, show the board some respect and lurk please.
>>5617I like this picture.
I will be honest, the sudden burst of activity on wapchan has been a bit vexing. I am really not sure what to post. If to post. Maybe I am drifting away from otaku sites?
>>5644>I will be honest, the sudden burst of activity on wapchan has been a bit vexing.I wouldn’t say this site is really that active tbh.
Only a few posts get made on per day and it’s mostly just anons starting to start soku matches.
>>5645I want to post more but I feel like my posts will never be good enough or nobody will reply so I sulk and lurk.
>>5646It’s better to post something than nothing at all.
You can always reply to threads that haven't gotten any replies yet. This site needs more energy.
I find myself too tried and sleepy to do anything worthwhile everyday. I just keep eating and sleeping. What should I do?
>>5647you understand the captcha was in response to csam and multiple raid attempts, right? would you rather have this place full of soy images?
I hate atheists and I hate dealing with them all the time. It’s like dealing with a manchild. Seems like the internet is crowded with fanboys for dumb or watered down or downright irritating ideas.
>>5656It could be your diet. Are you getting enough sleep?
>>5667I met a vocal atheist a couple of days ago but he didn't want to comment on my buddhist-centric view of religion.
>>5667I’ve been running into them a lot more lately. They seem to keep to their obnoxious corners though. I’ve noticed a lot more on the Asian internet, like the trend never died or something. People keep telling me the New Atheists were an aberration from real atheism, but if you go back and read Voltaire, Holbach, Sade, Paine etc. they were just as hostile and obnoxious back then too. Well, Voltaire wasn’t an atheist but anti religious anyway.
>>5668It’s strange. I guess because New Atheist types see Buddhism as an inoffensive good religion or because some of them jump through hoops to claim Buddhism is atheistic or something retarded like that.
>>5671Buddhism is unfamiliar to them. That's the extent of why an atheist wouldn't grandstand against it.
>>5673They will get around to it sooner or later.
>>5675Atheism as a concept is just a response to abrahamic ideas of religion. They wouldn't get around to it because atheism doesn't apply outside of that scope of culture.
but most atheist and agnostic people are just doing their own thing, its just the ones that are bitchy about it that are annoying, but that goes the same for religious people who are bitchy about it instead of doing their own thing
>>5692A lot of beliefs have to be made vocal in order to be valid as beliefs. As a side-effect, some people are going to be made uncomfortable.
I am full of tension. Anxiety, or whatever the hell it is, it's driving me nuts. What is the go to place to WHINE about it? I don't know what else I can do at this point.
>>5774Feeling more safe usually helps with feeling less angry.
I would suggest finding some reliable and kind people around you irl and just getting acquainted with them without forming any attachments. You will than feel that you have someone to help you out in a desperate situation should it happen, that will make you feel safer, and you will have less stress that turns into anger.
>>5775I have enough social support irl to make that a complete non-issue. I'm not angry, I worry that I am not understanding enough of other people, and it seems impossible to develop the right mindset needed to think compassionately about others over even the most trivial issue.
>>5777I think it's very important to treat emotional problems within their own domains instead of trying to analyze things using pure reasoning. Such that things could be appreciated for what they are rather than what significance they may hold.
Lol someone finally a made a "dots" libre game on linux
http://openkropki.sourceforge.net/, which traditionally played only with ballpen and square grid math sheet paper. Back in the day, I used to play this stupid traditional game in school. Considering nothing that were taught in school were fun, might else else invent a game with paper and pen to kill time with school friends. The funny thing is at the end of the day, I always won playing it. I don't understand what so hard playing this dumb game. It is not even a chess level difficulty but my school friends always have hard time beating me.
Speaking about this libre linux game. There's no online multiplayer yet. Well that's too bad for a start on computer game. Playing againts computer Ai is too easy and they all sucks at it. Looking forward for mulitiplayer online mode though so I could bully their butt to whoever my online opponent is.
>>5788This actually looks pretty difficult, anon. Simple on the outside, deep underneath. With some effort, you could extend the strategic and tactical concepts of Go to this - groups, liberties, extensions, joseki, initiative…
>>5831In go, you cannot capture your opponent dot by forming a diagonal line if I'm not mistaken. This game on other hand is pretty much gimp version of go where you could easily manuver to surround your enemy dots with diagonal positioning. With some thought of calculation, you could easily anticipate your next move for 4 to 5 dots in advance.