Sorry.

Sorry. I'll try to never again make a post.
There is something inside me, I can be free in a way other people can't imagine, but I have been dragged down my whole life by things that should be unimportant, that shouldn't matter. Something went wrong in my life, I know it's not my fault but that doesn't change the fact I failed. I just wanted to do what I was supposed to do. I can't explain this, it's impossible to communicate, but I can see really, really nice dreams, and I wanted to explore them and show them. I just love dreaming, imagining, creating, thinking, I can do so every moment of my day and every day. This doesn't make any sense, it's the kind of thing that could only make sense through actions and works, but I'll never get to do so, so I have to try explaining it in words, but it's impossible. It's just that there are things I enjoy learning about, and things I wanted to try, but I'll never be allowed to. I wanted to show what I'm like, I wanted to be myself, but I'll never be allowed to. I just wanted to get into math and cs, or drawing, or music, at a very young age and dedicate every instant of my life to that just one thing. I wish I could go back to nursery school and get into mathematics back then. There's something very wrong with my brain, I'm very bad at certain things, but somehow I really enjoy other certain things in a way normal people can't enjoy, so I wanted to be free, and dedicate myself to something important, that only I could do. And even if I'm bad at everything and have no real skills, I still at least enjoy learning and trying, and could keep trying my whole life. But this life was a prison, I just never got to pursue my dreams. It's too late now, I'm not going to make it, I'm stabilizing my mental situation and trying to sort out my life but it's too late, my world is falling apart and there's nothing I can do. I don't know, it hurts, no matter how many times I try, I can't convey this. It's just that I feel I never got to be myself, like I was supposed to show what I really am, but I never got a chance like everyone else. Like something went very wrong. Like God abandoned me. I just wanted to be free, I wanted to try, I wanted to be myself, but everything went wrong, it's like I never existed, as if I was never born in the first place. I just wanted to be free and be myself. I feel like in an invisible cage, hitting my fist on the wall and screaming, but no one can see or hear me. And I feel like if I could break Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>2395
I should say sorry for being unkind to you previously. I'm sorry. I am not good at dealing with the pain of others. I cannot understand your burdens though I can see they are crushing you.

My words mean nothing but I am envious of what you have. There is nothing inside me. I am just a soulless doll. To keep beautiful worlds within oneself, as you do, is something I've always wanted but can never have.

Sorry.

The mind, it always fails.

>>2431
Not spam, is self-advertising :)

>JG Thirwell
I downloaded all of his albums but haven't checked them out yet. Thank you for the compliment though>>2431
>>2431

Felt like it'd be good to post some new stuff since the board is in a new location. To celebrate having a new home or something I guess.
>>2410
Thought I replied earlier but I guess I forgot. The first one is actually digital, If memory serves I used a pencil tool at a bigger size than usual to get the soft lines.
>>2413
I like the little frog guys they're pretty cool. The lizard guy selling tattoos is probably my favorite. All of these are nice.

>>2457
seems like the last image I posted didn't go through.

>>2458
site admin here, it's set to 3 files per post (mostly to prevent spam on other boards). not sure if you can set a higher limit on specific boards

>>2459
I figured it was either that or I just forgot to attach it. Thanks for clarifying though. I don't mind 3 files per post I don't think there's a need to change it for this board now that I know that's the limit

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjTph0xBC1A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQ431BwUpFc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MoWwzbJrqgs
Twenty year anniversary of Bionicle was today, I don't have any builds anywhere near finished to share and I'd rather not show off pictures of a bunch of random arms and guys with no legs, but i did want to make a post at least. Hopefully the games are good when they're done, Masks of Power Legacy was a bit empty feeling and the combat wasn't good but it was cool to just walk around Mata Nui and talk to Tohunga and stuff, even if it is an unfinished version of the game. The new trailer looks good so that's nice, although no gameplay was shown so hopefully it is at least better than the Legacy version when it's complete.

Oh man I remember this thread, I distinctively remember losing my sides at the Woody pictures.
>>876
>>937
>is it weird to anyone that only water...was female?
>(water being naturally gentle, meaning it suits the ideal female). Sort of like how the earth element was associated with wisdom and knowledge or fire with valor. Pretty much the only element with feminine traits was water so it made sense for it to be the female one.
I don't know much about Bionicle other than once reading about how its inspired by Polynesian religion and folklore, but water has been considered a female element since ancient times, and in many esoteric traditions. Poseidon is the only male deity associated with water that I know of, and even that is not his sole association, he has other aspects to him.

>>1602
I can't believe it was only two years ago.

r/sexybionicles is good.

I've been messing around in Bricklink Studio a bit. I haven't used Lego Digital Designer in a long time, but I've found Studio to be much more intuitive to use, and the renders you can make with it are really nice.

>>1366
This board and lizchan were being shilled on 4chad when wizchan went down.

>>1375
lizchan doesn't seem to work right now so this board is all that's left. this is crazy

>>1380
never mind lizchan is working now

>>1216
Finally got around to watching this. God it's so comfy to imagine a peaceful carefree life in that little rural hamlet.

I remember watching the tv series long ago, but I never got around to watching the movie for some reason. I really enjoyed it, I'll probably watch the sequel at some point too. Much more of a serious detective movie tone than the tv series, but it was good at doing that so I enjoyed it. Maybe if I had watched it immediately after watching the tv series I would have been disappointed it didn't have the same tone.

>>2336
I started on another and I guess it's full of mildew because I get allergy symptoms when I open it. Damn. The rest of the box is probably the same.

>>2337
That sounds quite annoying. Only once have I had to deal with a book with those problems, and what I did was to clean it very carefully and try to ventilate it before reading it.

>>2338
It's my own fault for leaving them to rot for years instead of reading them. So I feel kind of guilt if anything. I tried leaving them out but they made my whole room stink. It seems that people are using ozone to disinfect them but I don't have an ozone generator.

>>1287
Just finished "The Plague" by Camus, it was ass, I may have skipped a lot. Working on "Priory of the Orange Tree", but I keep putting it down and not picking it back up. Not enough time to read :(

>>2359
>Priory of the Orange Tree
I just did some research on that book, and it looks like it is over 800 pages long. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I can't remember the last time I read something that long. How do you like it so far?

>>1793
I got bux

Guess things only ever get worse

>>2125
I am astonished how true this continues to be. It's only been a little over 3 months since >>1798 commented on the state of things since OP and now there's an escalating war in the 2nd largest country in Europe between European nations.

>>2126
Two years ago I expected basically a stasis on this kind of stuff, with governments just kind of quietly locking things down as economic and social conditions got worse. Instead there was the plague and all that it brought with it, and now a war.
I just hope it doesn't spiral out of control like the plague did, but for all any of us know it might already be unavoidable. This time two years ago the plague was barely a month old and the sharemarkets had collapsed, I guess the war is only a week or so old and anything could happen.

It's fucking 2023. Fuck.

Here are some colored-pencil illustrations made by Mark Ferrari, who is best known for his backgrounds for Loom and The Secret of Monkey Island. However, what I really want to share are his color cycling/palette-shifting artworks. Just open this link, click on "Show Options" and play around with the "Time of Day" slider:
http://www.effectgames.com/demos/worlds/
>>1155
>>1156
I'd never heard of Scythe, but I really like the pictures you posted. It's interesting the way these paintings use their environment. It's like seeing an everyday situation that hides a dark secret. Also, I think it's the first time I see such a serious take on gnomes.
>This kind of scenes make me imagine a whole story behind it, it's like you just catched a glimpse of something going on
I know what you mean. I've always liked when a painting or a drawing makes me feel that way.

>>1160
I remember that pixel art web from old magicchan, nice memories.

Scythe is a tabletop game set in some sort of alternate WWI with mechas everywhere. I haven't played it because I don't have anyone to play with but I would like to get my hands on it someday just because it looks cool.
So the guy draws so many things I like, mecha, soldiers, gnomes, cats, monsters and medieval knights.

>>322
I may appreciate Balthus work to some extent but honestly, yes objectively speaking it's not technically very good.

I will hijack this thread to share some papes I saved during the years.

>>2186
I will imagine this as you doing laps of your lair while reciting incantations to banish the evil groids and bring peace upon your realm.

A long time ago I had a homework assignment from school, we were supposed to do some activities that people in the ancient world might have done, one of these was to maintain a shrine to the household gods. I found that to be kind of fun so for quite a few years I'd leave nonperishable food offerings in a little cupboard whenever in need of luck. It was just a bit of silliness though.

>>2187
That sounds pretty cool. Maybe I should imagine the same thing while I'm doing my daily laps.
>>2189
It's funny, there are many cultures that do similar things. I'm usually a very skeptical guy, but who knows? Maybe there's something real behind those ancient traditions.

>>2190
I mean many cultures do ancestor worship, and that's dumb.

>>2201
As a skeptical guy myself, I however respect these practices.
I even sometimes do magic things even if I deeply know it'skind of larping but I enjoy doing it for the sole purpose of beauty.

>>2158
>>2159
>"Sea monster swimming through the ruins of an ancient underwater civilization".
It missed some of the intended marks, but it still came out really cool looking. It makes me think of concept art. Like it's a design for a boss battle against a mutant leviathan or something.

Good to see there have been some more posts recently. Almost a month had gone by without anything being posted. I began to think that I hadn't been invited to tower's first (and last) annual all you can drink poison punch party. Tagline: Party till you drop.

>>2171
I'm very glad there are still people who post here too. It's true that there are periods in which this place is a little dead, but that only lasts for a few days at most.

Sometimes, when the stars align, my symptoms aren't so bad and old man lady luck smiles upon me I can almost think "this isn't so bad".

Don't know if the inactivity here is related to the thread hitting bump limit but now that it's about to fall off the front page it's probably good time to make a new thread. If anyone wants a one that is.

It's really interesting when artists decide to remake their older songs, especially if they make a totally different take on them. Here are a couple of examples:

>Macabre (Pre-Pentagram) - Be Forewarned
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gk0q6tjD6gY
>Pentagram - Be Forewarned
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIBNMoqYX9s
>Swans - Your Property
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=891H3E7eRnQ
>Swans - Yrp
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUveBfdZIj0

Semi unrelated picture, by the way.

>>1885
Really nice songs. I love how ""hypnotic" they are.

>>1889
I'm sorry. It looks like there was a problem with my connection and the image wasn't attached.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pfv9FDnMcaI

I'm not from the US but the translated version of this song reminds me of when I was in kindergarten where they made us sung it.

>>2166
I'm not from the US either, but I have no idea that song was translated to other languages. Out of curiosity, I took a look at Second Hand Songs and found many different versions of the song in several languages.

>Mandarin version
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rDb4upMkp8
>Italian version
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RPh3SFI0e9M
>Spanish version
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUoGHp2EiiQ

Now that I think about it, I shouldn't be surprised by this. It's very popular and old song; it makes sense that it has so many versions. Out of curiosity, which version did you use to sing when you were in kindergarden?

>>2169

This one (it's in italian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KA-sYFSYZOA