Hi, I'm new here. I like what I've seen so far.
Being bored, I thought I'd add to the theme of the thread, talking about my life and current situation. Or just whatever feels interesting to write about.
I think I'm in a similar headspace to many here, mid 20s, often pained by how much of my life it feels like I wasted.
But I always feel hopeful, optimistic. Not always happy, necessarily. Generally ambivalent, or numb. But always with this feeling that I'll get everything I want, eventually.
(putting this here after the fact, there's not much of a point to this story, it's just what's been on my mind and I felt like writing it out.)
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I accompanied my mum to the doctor yesterday morning, and before driving us home she thought to get me something to eat. It was really busy so my mum told me to get out the car and order for myself while she found somewhere to park, I was hesitant, and if this kind of thing happened back 5-6 years ago I wouldn't have been able to do it. I can order for myself at certain places, if I've done it at that location before, I'm generally comfortable enough doing it again. I hadn't ordered here and was always anxious about the idea of doing so, it's a pie shop and it's one of those places where they have all the seating out front, and you walk past the people eating, to go inside and order. I also don't like the aspect of ordering somewhere where I haven't done so before, where, it depends on the place, how you wait to receive your order, how they inform you that it's ready. So I had that on my mind when I was walking in.
When I walked in I noticed like 3-4 different staff members, and they were all really cute girls. Which heightened my anxiety a bit but I guess also made me happy. Being in your mid 20s, with no friends, being NEET, you don't get chances to interact with cute girls all too often. One girl was going was going around cleaning I think, she needed to get past this guy to open a door to put something in there or clean something, but he didn't notice and she seemed too shy to ask him to move, so she was just standing there for a bit, which I thought was cute. I worked retail for a few years so I know exactly what that shyness feels like, in that kind of moment. There was also this older lady who literally had to brush past him when she was leaving the store, so I think he was just kind of a jerk. We also stared each other down for a bit for no particular reason wh
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